tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2004248262098176024.post5263362343084512537..comments2010-11-01T16:40:10.683-04:00Comments on Some Kind of Fairytale: Postpartum FailSamanthahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12165764413597220537noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2004248262098176024.post-1581535131675746112010-10-11T21:34:01.538-04:002010-10-11T21:34:01.538-04:00I hated breastfeeding for probably the first two o...I hated breastfeeding for probably the first two or three months. It was my sheer stubborness and desire to have Raegan exclusively breastfed that kept me at it. Until we got her on the reflux medicine, every nursing ended with her vomitting all over me. So instead of wanting to nurse every two or three hours like a typical newborn, she wanted to nurse basically 20 minutes after the time she stopped eating/threw up on me. I cannot even describe to you how much it sucked. I started dreading feeding her because of what a mess it was. Thank God that the problem was as simple as acid reflux and medicine got it mostly under control. Now I love breastfeeding, and am starting to get a little sad about weaning Raegan.<br /><br />Do NOT feel like a jerk for saying that new motherhood sucks. It does. I never slept. I never talked to anyone until I went back to work. And until we got the reflux under control, all I did was nurse and eat or pee or sleep for a few minutes in between. How I even made it through grad school I have no flippin' idea.<br /><br />And I started off nursing Raegan in the rocking chair in her room so her and I could have privacy and it wouldn't bother Zane, blah blah blah. Forget that. After a couple weeks I pulled out a big blanket and started nursing her in the living room so that I could at least watch television or talk to Luke if it was in the evening. I felt awful because I read all these books about making eye contact and bonding and talking to her, but OMG I was nursing her all the flippin' time and I needed something for myself, even if it was just a crappy rerun of Wife Swap. lol<br /><br />Hang in there. It gets better, and it is so worth all the crappiness you go through right now.Shannonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00852188343982877166noreply@blogger.com